Still Awake

It's hard for me to stop being awake these days. Although the sleepiness are making my eyes heavy and sandy, there's something inside me that won't go to sleep. It's like I'm breathing for two. So alive. I'm starting to care less about some things. Sleep is one thing - being on time when it comes to work and other official responsibilities is another - and I just realised that I don't care as much about keeping a positive atmosphere no matter what as I used to. I think this is healthy. I welcome change. But I'm getting lonely. It's hard for people that know you really well to like changes. Why is this? Afraid of not liking the person that comes out on the other side? Or that the new person won't like the old friend? Because it reminds the person that they are stuck? I really don't get it. Somewhere I'm still afraid of people not liking me. Gotta risk some things now. It's about time. 

Rebecca